From the time I was in junior high I’ve been obsessed with the number on the scale instead of with where by body is.
I still fight with those demons. In fact, I fight with those demons to the point that I have no idea what my actual weight is. I guestimate. I get weighed at the doctor’s office only and even then I choose not to know the number.
I’ve worked very hard to get to where I am – both physically and mentally – and I am proud of my accomplishments in the fitness and healthy living world. I’ve overcome my eating disorders – and for the most part, my disordered eating – but there’s still that little piece about the number that resonates in me. *sigh* I hope to not be battling these demons forever.
I tell my clients too that they should not focus on the number of their weight. That, instead, they should focus on their healthy choices and fitness regime. Ignore the BMI (because it’s really not an accurate way to measure your health anyway) and be mindful of their lifestyles.
Be proud of how far you’ve come. Even if you’ve only lost a pound of fat or gained a pound of muscle – that’s further than where you were last week or month. That’s something.
I am proud of where I am today compared with where I was this time last year. Sometimes I need to remind myself about the strength within. Sometimes I need to quiet those demons. I’m getting there. Are you?